Day 1: Introduce Yourself
“I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
I’m the girl that’s full of contradictions. I hate running but I’d love to do it. I hate being hot and sweaty but I love the ocean and the beach. I hate my body but I love my curves. I hate my frizzy hair but I love how it looks when it cooperates. I hate my freckles but love the way they come out in the summer.
I hate people who are passionate about something but wish I had something I was equally passionate about. I hate people who are ignorant; who judge you on how you look but when certain people cross my path I look away. I hate people who volunteer but wish I had the strength to do it. I hate people who do things better than me but I rarely put forth an honest effort to really be good at anything.
I’m the girl who had big dreams but let reality get in the way. I’m the girl who stops when she’s done just enough. I’m the girl that never goes that extra mile. I’m the girl who gets walked on. I’m the quiet girl. I’m the girl that gets forgotten. I’m the girl that’s always nice. I’m the girl who’s always smiling. I’m the girl who always listens. I’m the girl who’s shy until she’s not. I’m the girl who hides behind sarcasm. I'm the girl who envies people who have such strong faith in God.
I’m the girl who loves life. I’m the girl that loves traveling and adventure and a good story. I’m the girl who gets excited about the little things. I’m the girl that loves the snow. I’m the girl that watches cartoons. I’m the girl who reads too much. I’m the girl who’d rather spend a night in a bookstore than out at a bar. I’m the girl who wishes she was really good at something, anything. I’m the girl who procrastinates. I’m the girl who when she is motivated will blow you away with what she can do. I’m the girl with the big ideas but no fire in her belly. I’m the girl that’s scared to go back to school. I’m the girl that’s nervous around new people. I’m the girl who wishes she was athletic, musical, artistic…something more than what she is.
I’m the girl who’s hopelessly in love with being in love. I’m the girl who loves her husband beyond words. I’m the girl who’s scared of ever being a mother, because it’s the most important thing she’ll ever do with her life. I’m the girl who wishes she’d gone to college already. I’m the girl who wishes she had a family like the ones on TV. I’m the girl who wishes she had friends like the one she’s about in books.
I’m the girl who wishes she could make a difference. I’m the girl that’s full of fears, afraid to take that leap. I’m the girl who wants to write but is scared that first criticism would turn me from it forever. I’m the girl who wishes she was a better sister, daughter, granddaughter, cousin, friend, wife. I’m the girl who wishes on shooting stars and won’t pick up a penny unless it’s on heads. I’m the girl who’s fascinated by people. I’m the girl who wants to do something extraordinary but is actually pretty happy being ordinary. I’m the girl that wants to be defined by who she is, not what she does…whoever that might be.
I’m the girl who’s twenty-three, has traveled more than anyone else in my family and most of my friends, who has a husband that little girls dream about having when they grow up and is still wondering…what do I have to show for my life?
